How I beat my Lifelong Addiction to Using and Selling Heroin, Using the Law of Attraction Part 2

This post is the second and final of a two-part series. If you want to catch up, you can check out Part 1 here. The Law of Attraction not only helped and continues to help me kick my addiction to IV heroin’s ass, but it also saved and continues to save my life. I spent most of those twenty-plus years trying to quit, and that’s ALOT of lessons. Lessons that I highly suggest you stick around for.

Now What?

I left off where Pat and I had just gotten a positive pregnancy test result. What I meant by the comment about there being a reason I wasn’t pregnant was that I didn’t want kids. My addiction and revolving door to prison were the top two reasons, but I also knew I was selfish. My addiction rendered me selfish. I had watched over one hundred women in finishing school cry, mourn, and lose their minds due to losing or even being away from their children. Long ago, I had decided I never wanted to feel that way. I also believed I didn’t have a maternal bone in my body.

First of all, I was and am very girlie as far as appearances go, but I have always been one of the guys. All my best friends are guys, and it’s not like we sat around talking about motherhood. Yeah, not going to happen. I was also safe regarding sex. I forced my partners to use protection, and if they weren’t willing to, then it wasn’t going to happen. Spending most of those years in a series of long-term relationships, which I usually ended every time I went back to “finishing school.” I cared much more about drugs than I did sex, and people have even referenced that fact when speaking of those times in my life.

I remember suddenly feeling very protective of the little green bean. The way Pat was looking at me… Pat had two daughters. They were ages 9 and 12 when we first got together and had different moms. I could tell what he was thinking. Finally, we had to make a decision to leave the trap house where I was renting a room, and it was a very final decision.

We Would Have to Change Everything

I told Pat that there would be no going back. We went to my bedroom, and we sat. I talked until we could talk no more. He had an excellent argument for everything I referenced. All I could think about was going back to “finishing school” because I ALWAYS went back to finishing school. I concluded that I had to take that out of the equation entirely, and I even pulled it off for the first six months of my pregnancy until old ghosts caught up to me, but that part of the story is coming soon enough.

We knew that we had to stop using and selling heroin, which shouldn’t have been too hard because we were on Methadone. Being on methadone was a literal ball & chain for us because we were forced to take a Medicaid-sponsored bus over two mountains to Brattleboro, an hour each way. If one person riding had a group or a meeting with their counselor, then we weren’t getting back to our town until after 2 pm. We had to leave at 7:30 am, and the state wonders why people were forced to sell drugs. You can’t work and be on methadone, right? Recovery was one of many things I had never experienced success in, and I knew I needed a fresh look at it. I needed to change everything, but I didn’t really have the resources.

The Law of Attraction

I would have to step out of my comfort zone and possibly even become semi-normal. Oh, snap. Throughout this day, my mind kept returning to the videos I had been watching lately. The videos about the law of attraction. These videos claimed that thoughts became things, and that totally made sense to me suddenly because, throughout the past twenty-plus years, I had always had a jail mentality. “I may as well because I am going back to jail eventually anyways.” It feels so small and sad looking back now.

Why couldn’t I have seen this sooner? It couldn’t be that simple. If I stopped thinking about going back, then I wouldn’t go back. I looked back on many of my habits and behaviors and approached them in my mind with a law of attraction viewpoint, and suddenly everything just fit. I had manifested everything that had happened to me. It was a really harsh realization and just what I needed. I had manifested my very own destiny, and it was my job to unmanifest THAT destiny and create a new destiny for me and my unborn baby. My family.

Let’s Do It

After that thought, I asked Pat if he would be okay with me getting rid of everything (the drugs) we had left. He said, “Let’s do it.” We didn’t want to flush the entire ball of buns, so we started by getting it all wet, so there was no going back. Then we took the wet buns, wrapped them in toilet paper wads, and then flushed them. Being a person in recovery, I know it’s hard to believe that we actually did this, but we did. I anticipated myself feeling different from one moment to the next because it wasn’t just about our habits; it was about our money, and more importantly, it wasn’t about us anymore.

This is why as soon as we went back into that bathroom, I immediately threw the softball into the sink and turned the water on. It surprised us both. I regretted it immediately, but throughout the first few weeks of my first pregnancy, I found comfort in thinking of my little green bean and thinking about a new life living by the law of attraction. I had hope for the first time ever. By the day’s end, Pat and I decided we needed to get out of that apartment, and after talking to Pat about my discovery of the law of attraction, we both came to the very positive conclusion that something would pop up.

This Shit Really Works

We walked downtown and ended up at The Turning Point, a local recovery center for people struggling with or in recovery from substance use disorder. We started talking about what had happened, and the next thing we knew, we were speaking with the director in his office. He told us about a program that was being created at that very moment for families. He told us the house with apartments for families in recovery would have its first available unit within a few weeks and that we would have to stay at Thatcher House, part of our local homeless shelter, until that time. Walking out of there, all I could think was, “this shit really works!”

When Things Work Out

It kept happening, and the more that things kept working out for us, the deeper I dug into educating myself on everything law of attraction. This is how I found my spirituality. Contrary to popular belief, spirituality has absolutely nothing to do with religion. Spirituality, for me, means truth. It means believing, and it means receiving. I often like to say to my kids, “if you don’t believe, you don’t receive.” Spirituality means having faith in human goodness and karma. Spirituality is doing unto others as you would have them do unto you. It represents freedom, love, and taking back your power. You can feel good every day without guilt, and it’s okay.

Spirituality is wholeness. It means the discovery of the unknown, being a part of something so much bigger than yourself, that is, yourself, and never being let down because you never have to put yourself in a position to be so. It means everything, and more than anything in this world, I wish I could give this gift of spirituality to you just as it was given to me, so that’s what I am aiming for, but as you will find out, either way, the choice, and it is a choice, is yours, friend.

Gratitude

For me, spirituality filled the deep dark hole within my being that I had always tried to fill with drugs. How foolish I had been. My entire life, I was always uncomfortable. Can you imagine never being comfortable in your own skin? Somehow, I imagine you can. I always felt as though I was busting out of my skin, and I’m not talking about my status as a thicker woman. I had always felt as though I was wearing a skin suit that was five sizes too small. It all makes so much sense now. I simply had nothing to believe in. Just imagine what you could be capable of if you had something to believe in. Maybe even something that gave you a reason to believe in yourself.

I began reading and listening to Audible all day, every day. I still do. As I write this, I am listening to a book called Bloodline of the Gods By Nick Redfern. It’s about RH Negative blood, and it’s a spectacular book. I highly recommend it. Thank you for this, Nick Redfern. My journey began with gratitude. I knew I could do gratitude because I was an overly grateful person as a result of my many accumulated years away at finishing school. Gratitude had been said to lengthen lives, and that was enough for me. I practiced gratitude as soon as I opened my eyes in the morning, and I practiced gratitude every night as soon as closed my eyes. This started the first shift for me. I started walking around all… grateful and shit.

Not All Puppies and Rainbows

As much as I would like to tell you that it was all puppies and rainbows from here on out, I can’t. Things went well for about six months. We were living at the homeless shelter for almost three months, and it was challenging. We started going to church, and our church helped us get a vehicle. Once we moved into the apartment, things went great for another three months after we settled in. Right up until…

I woke up one night crying hard because I had a dream that I was sitting on a bunk in the hole, AKA segregation, in jail. I had my knees pulled up as close to my pregnant belly as they could be, and I was rocking back and forth, crying. This had me shaken. This was my worst fear. Going to jail when I had a kid at home or going to jail pregnant and getting stuck. I was crying so hard I woke Pat up. I told him about my dream, and he knew that I had to go check in at Probation & Parole the next day. As much as he wanted to tell me not to worry because we weren’t doing anything, he had already seen enough, and he knew that I didn’t need to offend to be an offender in our town.

Having Something to Lose

I was a target, and this wasn’t some kind of infamy that was made up in my head. He learned quickly that this wasn’t just a fabrication of the mind. He would be learning in a way that I had warned him about all too soon. I brought Pat to work the next morning. Pat had used the law of attraction to quit Methadone cold turkey. I wouldn’t believe it if I didn’t see it with my own eyes. He was only uncomfortable at night, and I tried offering him a sleeping pill because I felt horrible, and he wouldn’t even take that. We needed to work and one thing Pat is.. a very hard worker. He went to work every day in the almost 100-degree temperatures on a roof for ten hours a day! If that’s not a superpower, then I don’t know what is.

I had always been intuitive, and to say I had a bad feeling about going to Probation & Parole that day would have been a gross understatement. I prepared myself mentally and physically for the worse. Two things about this nightmare/dream bothered me. The first was that I was pregnant in jail, and this was the one thing I NEVER wanted to be. The second was that I was crying. I stopped crying about going to jail after my second time going there. I had learned to numb myself on a level that was also, for lack of a better word, superhuman. It was too real because this was the first time since I could remember that I had something to lose.

Once Again, Cuffed & Stuffed

I got to probation, and my ex, who was actively using and selling drugs, was there. When I saw the six police vehicles roll up, I thought that they were there for him because I had been doing amazing. I had almost seven months under my belt. I gave him a heads up, and of course, he looked terrified but denied any knowledge of what I was talking about. The next thing I know, they are charging the office door and rolling in like they had a battering ram. It was me they were after. I knew for sure about forty-five seconds before they rolled in when my eyes found a certain officer’s eyes, and they did what crooked cop eyes do when they being crooked, they looked quickly away.

They had no idea about my pregnancy, and after I was tackled, cuffed, and stuffed, they threw me in the van while they stood outside, acting like roosters in a hen yard, feeling cool. I kept screaming and asking what they were arresting me for. They told me to shut my mouth and started asking where Pat was. This terrified me. I would not ruin his life any further. He would not go to jail for anything I got him involved in, and if they got me, I was definitely involved.

2 Counts of Conspiracy & 2 Counts of Sale of Heroin

When they finally brought me to an interview room at the police station, they told me they didn’t want to talk about me. They wanted to talk about my best friend, _____________. That was as far as that conversation went, and because it went nowhere, I went to jail. I told them that I would sign off on the charges, which were two counts of sales, and two counts of conspiracy from seven months prior, if they didn’t incarcerate Pat. They did tell me that we were both being charged.  How creative of them.

I couldn’t bear the thought of Pat going to jail for something I had asked him to do, so I signed off on the charges, accepting full responsibility. The second I was done signing, they shared that they had two controlled buys on Pat, but they wouldn’t be arresting him today. All I could think about was how crushed he would be when I never showed up to pick him up from work. I knew how this was going to hurt him, and though I had warned him off, I didn’t actually want any of it to happen.

Five Months to Think About Things

I sat in jail for almost five months, thinking that I was going to have to leave the hospital without my baby. Two weeks before my induction was scheduled, I went to court, and they had nothing. Literally nothing. We knew who was responsible for doing the controlled buy, and he had sold to us that morning, so we were actually just selling him back his own stuff. We find out a few months later that they had no marked money and no audio. They claimed that the wire wasn’t working. They tried to add five years to my max after dropping the conspiracy and hitting us both with the sales. I ended up taking a two-sentence on my back end.

Throughout this time, Pat and I used visualization as a tool. We visualized our happy ending and being that we both watched it unfold exactly as we visualized it would, I had become a true believer. It might take Pat a while. I wrote every day in a book that I would someday give my daughter, and they were letters to her. I also write about our visualizations quite often.

My chips were down, but I would again rise from the ashes and again be reborn anew. I had done it so many times just to return and try again. I could now see that every failure wasn’t a failure at all but a lesson. So many lessons, but it was all starting to make sense now. This was my path, and I decided to stay positive and only think positive thoughts, and you have no idea how hard this was for me in there, but I survived it, and I’m better for it.

Never Losing Faith

That time incarcerated was the precursor to my real spiritual journey, from thinking to knowing. When I got home, I began to use visualization to get everything I wanted, and it worked. I began deep diving, and I haven’t stopped since. Not for a second did I lose faith when I was brought right back to the place that I so dreaded going. I knew it wasn’t the Universe or Source energy that put me there. I put myself there. A part of me was holding on because that’s what we do, isn’t it? We hold on and make things difficult for ourselves. This wasn’t even my last time going back, either, but I will save that for another day. Another instance of my past catching up with me.

I didn’t attend AA or NA. I have never attended a SMART Recovery meeting at all, and I will have seven years of just saying NO next month on March 18th, which also happens to be Pats and my anniversary. It’s really because we have no idea when we met, so we know that our sobriety date is the same as the date we found out we were pregnant, and it’s close enough. We aren’t picky.

So How Did I Do It?

This is so simple that I know I am going to be getting many mental eye rolls, and I would have never in my life believed that a series of such small things could finally make me successful in my recovery from heroin. The one thing that you can’t argue with is the results. Three years ago, Pat and I purchased a home that is now worth between 300k-350k. I used visualization and affirmations to improve our credit, and this is where I could no longer argue that I was definitely co-creating. I would meditate at least twice a day for at least ten minutes each time.

During this time, I would start my meditation by visualizing myself in a bubble of light. I would ground to the center of the earth and connect with the spirit above. As above, so below. Then I would use a method called The Silva Mind Control Method, which I learned from a course I had taken on Mindvalley. There is the mental screen technique and then the Three Scene’s Technique.

I used the Mental Screen and find both to be extremely effective. It’s basically just reaching the alpha state of mind or reaching your center and then picturing a large movie screen in your mind. The screen is to be as large as you can picture it, six feet ahead and twenty degrees above your normal line of vision. Simply picture the outcome of your desires playing out on that screen. Do it for as much or as little time as you, please. I can’t tell you how it works, but it freaking works, people!

New Habits & Faith

I used this method to get just about everything I never thought I would have, including my home and cars. As you have probably figured out by now, I also used both of the above techniques to beat my addictions ass. I wish you could see how bad I was and how deep my addiction ran through my being. (pun intended). The fact that I permanently discolored and disfigured my own hands due to my IV drug use should be indicative of the depths of my addiction.

I didn’t even have the desire to change, and if you are here right now, then that is desire, so you have one up on me. This is why I will never stop saying that change is possible. If I can do it, then anyone can. If I can do it, you can too. All you have to do is stick with a few new habits and faith.

I have something that might help with the faith piece right here. This is something I used and that I have had every client that ever showed an interest in my beliefs use. Ask for a sign from the universe within the next 48-72 hours. Come on. Humor me. “Hey, Uni! Sorry to bother you, but this whacko addiction blogger/coach chick Sam told me to ask for a sign, so here it is. Please show me a ________________ within the next 48-72 hours as a show of good faith, and so I can know that Sam knows what she is talking about before I follow her on Instagram, FB, and Twitter.” (Wink Wink). Pat asked to see a purple and red butterfly.

Purple & Red Butterfly

Pat was still on the fence somehow until this point. When I told him to just ask for a sign, he went with the generic purple and red butterfly. I thought he was being a bit hard on Uni being that it was winter in Vermont. Just like every client I have ever had that asked for a sign, he called me excitedly, blurting out that he opened FB, and the first thing he saw was the above butterfly, drawn by my niece. Uni has yet to disappoint me. Sometimes it may take a few more days than was requested, but I think that this has more to do with us and our state of mind. The art of allowing is one that I am still working to progress, not perfect.

I still have my days, I mean, I have two kids under the age of six, and I am forty-two years young. I still ask for signs all the time. You simply have to change your mindset because that was my true game-changer. You probably want to know what now? I suggest beginning just as I did. Start watching Joe Dispenza, Abraham Hicks, and anything on the law of attraction on YouTube. There is a wealth of information there, as you may know.

Meditate

Start meditating NOW. I don’t know why, but this changed everything also, and I don’t want to hear that you can’t meditate because you got the ADHD, either. I also suffer from ADHD, and I love meditating and astral projecting. Click here or here if you are interested in specially curated ADHD meditations. There is no room for excuses in the recovery game. I’m serious. We have been making excuses for way too long, friend.

The Compound Effect

I read a book called The Compound Effect by Darren Hardy, and it just really resonated with me on all levels, and I am hoping it may resonate with you as well. Darren explains that the compound effect starts by making small everyday choices that lead up to BIG long-term results. Good or bad, these small habits add up over time. I knew it wouldn’t be too hard to change my life by creating small healthy habits that I had to seriously commit myself to doing every single day. No vacation days and no excuses. My conclusion is holy shi*! It works.

I chose the following small habits to add to my daily routine. Keep in mind that I am an all-or-nothing type of person, so when I am in, I go IN. Don’t choose seven habits to start. We are progressing, not perfecting over here, friends. I am just telling you what I did and what worked for me, and I did a lot of research on habits, and habits are so important. I had no idea. When I say everyday habits, I want you to be mindful and make sure you set them to be realistic. We tend to be really hard on ourselves when we don’t live up to expectations, even if they are our own.

My Life-Changing Habits

I know how this sounds, but please keep in mind I only want to help you or your loved one to get and stay sober. This is where I want to remind you that if I can do it, then you can too. My new habits were as follows:

• Meditate
• Visualization (extremely important for manifesting)
• Be on time (I am really struggling with this one, but there has been an improvement).
• Listen to my affirmations (audio that I created with my voice speaking the affirmations)
• Drink Water (Water has been proven to have a consciousness, and you can use it to your advantage.)
• Movement (for me, this was Supernatural boxing on Oculus Quest 2.)
• Gratitude (I set two gratitude alarms on my phone, morning and night, and they are still there.)
• Journaling (I know this isn’t a favorite, but I tried to get around it too, but you can’t because of the growth benefits.)

These are all very small actionable changes that you can make either one at a time or introduce these small habits to whatever routine you have got going on. I make a conscious effort not to lecture or push my beliefs, opinions, etc., on anyone. There is a knowing that I am not better than anyone because I FINALLY, after twenty-plus years, dragged my as* out of the hole that I dug for myself. I don’t judge because it’s not the easiest thing to do, and I know that I could be right back there in a hot NY minute. It’s happened to me many times, so please don’t think that I am coming at you like that because I only want to, he

The Biology of Belief

These are the habits that I made a commitment to integrate into my everyday life. Start with one or two, and integrate the others slowly moving forward. I can’t tell you how they work, but I can tell you that, somehow, they do. I have no doubt that if you stick with these habits, you will soon experience the compound effect.

Small changes add up to big results. Start with meditation. I can’t tell you how this works because I seriously don’t even know myself. I am pursuing knowledge every day of my life. It’s another addiction of mine, and I do it because I really don’t know how these simple habits turned the game in my favor. I have heard many people say that “I am” is an activating statement. I do believe that God may have made a reference in the bible, as well. Something about “…tell them I am that I am.” It makes sense.

If you are someone that is interested in how spirituality syncs up with the bible, please check out The Biology of Belief by Bruce Lipton. It also explains the science behind some of what we have talked about, and there is science behind it. Visualization is something you will get better and better with the more you practice. I think I suffer from something called Aphantasia. It’s where I can’t see anything with my eyes closed. I use words to visualize memories, so if I can do it with Aphantasia…

Affirmations

Being on time was one that I just threw in for myself, and I think it is important for all of us. I hate being a chronic late person, and I have passed this trait down to my children, and it really hurts me. You don’t have to keep it in there, but I would, and I did. Affirmations are beautiful tools, and as I said, I don’t know how they work, but they really do. I downloaded a really cool free app that looks like an old-school tape recorder from the eighties. You are able to download this awesome voice recorder here. I asked Alexa to play some spa music, and I recorded myself saying about thirty affirmations. I listen to them every morning on the way to work.

A few weeks ago, I am listening to the affirmations that I had recorded last October, and I realize that almost every single one of them had come to fruition! Some of these were not small feats, and some I wasn’t even close to being ready for. I meditate every day, and I work out every day. Then I am a non-smoker (that was one hundred fifty-six days ago, eight hours and forty-three minutes ago.

I have avoided 3,596 Camel cigarettes, saved $1,998, and won 14 days of my life back. Those are my QUITNOW app statistics. Check it out here) and I make great decisions every day. I had accomplished or accepted almost every one of them, and I am still waiting on the money. Due to some kind of money block, and I am actively working on it. I came home that day and started immediately on my next list, which is what I listen to now.

Water & Movement

Drinking water helped me because, as we now know, water has a consciousness. Click here if you want more details on this. I still struggle a lot with self-love, and I suck at it and always have. I experienced my first dose of self-love when I had my daughter, and I cheated. “If I can create such a beautiful child maybe I can’t be too bad.” You can’t find self-love in the eyes of another.

I tell my kids to love their water, so it will be rocking beautiful crystalline structures. My thinking was that if I love my water and thank it for nourishing my body, and helping me to love myself, then in essence, I would be loving myself because that water becomes a part of my body and that water is loved. Yeah, I know that one is a bit out there, but please read about the study of structured water. It’s beautiful and amazing, just like you.

Movement we all understand, I’m sure. Even walking for five minutes. Small changes leading to big result is what we are looking for. I highly recommend Yoga if you are interested in seeking alignment, and trust me, you are. Gratitude is something that we all need in our lives. It raises your vibration and makes it possible to remote view/astral project. I have two gratitude alarms on my phone. When they go off, whoever I am with is forced to speak about what they are grateful for. My kids have even come to love it.

Journaling & Shadow Work

Last but not least is journaling. I know. I know. It’s not going to kill you, and you can always add that one last. It is a great way to get insight into any issues that you may have come up. Better yet, you can journal your gratitude. There we go. Just try integrating these small habits into your life and watch the magic happen. This stuff keeps me sober every day, along with books and my pursuit of truth. Your job is to find one thing, aside from your drug or drink of choice, to feel good about. Use that thing to build momentum and stay positive. You got this!

The most important part of all of this is mindset. I cannot stress this enough. If you are storming around, making people jump out of your way, and just being a complete di*k, then this will all mean nothing. If you decide to make some changes and change your mindset, you will be leading with love, forgiving, showing kindness, and smiling everywhere you go. It spreads too. We can’t continue feeling sorry for ourselves if we are walking around smiling, can we?

Freedom Mastery

I found this really cool Law of Attraction Journal from Freedom Mastery. Being that I believe in 150% transparency in these matters, I do earn 15% of each sale of this book when my affiliate link is used, which comes out to around $4 per sale. I love this product so much that I decided to see if they had an affiliate program so that I would be able to recommend a product that I love and that has worked for me. This life mastery planner is amazing.

It features an area for your road map to success, all sorts of goal work, a fold-out vision board, a fold-out map for your travel bucket list, a pocket for all of your planner stickers, and much more. I’m on my second one, and I will be buying a third. If this is something you want to pursue, and you do, then this is a fantastic start. You can check out this amazing Life Mastery Law of Attraction Planner here. I am throwing in a few pictures of my personal copy.

Shadow Work

It’s a beautiful planner, and I love the company and all that they represent. Another thing I have recently been forced to find my peace with is shadow work. I didn’t know what shadow work was, so some of you may not know what it is. Psychoanalyst Carl Jung first developed the shadow self-concept. Shadow work is the act of working with both the conscious and subconscious mind to reveal parts and areas that you have kept hidden from yourself.

This often includes trauma and the parts of yourself that you hide from the world because, on a subconscious level, you find these traits to be dark or undesirable. Such as impulses, jealousy, greed, anger, etc. Shadow work helps to balance the good and what you perceive as bad to assist you in creating your best and highest self. My second affiliate link is another that I sought out because of how much it has helped me in my journey. If you use this link and purchase, I receive a small affiliate commission. These two books have really and truly helped me, and I use them both daily. Any affiliate link used on this site will be products that I stand by and back 100%.

Fu♥️K This

This shadow work Journal is appropriately called FU♥️K THIS, and the author is Love Weis. I can’t tell you how much this book has helped me on my journey. I was really reluctant to engage in this work initially, but this workbook has done wonders. If you are interested in checking it out and using my affiliate link, please click here.

I haven’t completed my shadow work yet, but I am committed to becoming my best and highest self, as should you or your loved one. This book will help. It helps to come face to face with the trauma of my past. Helping us to admit and process. Trauma was the last thing I wanted to deal with. I had packed it up long ago and put it in a long-lost storage room in my mind. I told myself for years that I am forward facing and that none of it matters, but it does. It needs to be acknowledged and integrated. It’s about balance. I ended up realizing that I had trauma from “finishing school” that I had never even realized. Apparently, being thrown in the hole on my own for months at a time did something to my psyche. Who would have thought?

Pshhhhhhh…

I hope that someone out there finds some value in this post. I’m on my own here. It’s pretty sad that I am three months in, and not one family member, not my sister, not my parents, has even checked out my blog. Not one visit. Not one family member has followed, liked, or subscribed. You would think that after what I have crawled out of that and all that I have done for them, it would be the least they could do to support me on my travels. Not even my significant other, who most of my posts include, has so much as visited my site. It’s ok, though. I will continue to support them in all that they do, and project to them only light and love. I’m sure if I ever start making money from my blog that they will surely engage. Pshhhhhhh… Too little, too late.

I am choosing to hold off on posting my blog to my personal social media followers and friends. My small town has torn me down and belittled me for so long that I feel that I can do this without them. Everyone tells me that this is a big mistake, but I think about how I am going to feel when I am helping hundreds, possibly and most hopefully, thousands of people, and then I say, “Oh, by the way, while you guys were all putting me down and hating on me because I beat my drug addiction I have been working hard to help others struggling from the very same, substance abuse disorder, and I have succeeded.”

In Conclusion

I imagine how great it will feel. In my opinion, if I manage to help one of you, I am successful because that’s all I am really trying to do. I know how hard recovery is, and being that I still can’t manage to find another opioid-specific blog… Either way, this is me keeping it 100 with you all.

If this post resonates with you, let me know in the comments below, and if there is something else that you would like me to write about, please let me know. Additionally, if you have questions or comments or are interested in working with me, contact me at support@samanthabushika.com. If you are interested in coaching but are limited in funds, please reach out, and we can figure something out. I don’t know if I will always be able to make that offer, but as of now, 02/24/23, I can, and I will.

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Post Off Quote (until next time)

“Think the thought until you believe it, and once you believe it, it is.”

-Abraham Hicks

Post off Affirmation

All of my problems have a solution. I will find the solutions to all of my problems with clear intentions and an open heart.