In the beginning, sobriety was difficult, but not as difficult as finding substances to poison my body on an hourly basis. When I think about all the time wasted on drugs and jail, I used to feel shame and regret, but now I think about where drugs and jail eventually got me.
Progressing, Not Perfecting
As I write, I am in a beautiful condo in Ceiba, Puerto Rico. I just got done swimming with my beautiful late-in-life children. (Meaning I gave birth at age 36 and 39.) I see now that the plan was perfect from the beginning. A tree fell next to our house and happened to break a window, and I managed to get about 6k, which I should have spent on digging myself out of debt, but me and my impulses. The entire trip has been blown up by bill collectors calling on repeat, but hey, we needed a vacation. Progressing, not Perfecting, right?
I grew up poor, starving, and to be honest, smelling like cat pee. Yes, it was horrible, but even as a child, I had a way of making the best out of the worst situations. Even though I was cherubic, taller than all the other kids, and smelling of cat pee, I somehow remained likable to most. I was never picked on to my face, and I was always popular, and I always had rich friends that I dreamed of switching places with.
I am 3 years into my awakening, and every day things become more clear to me. Everything I endured in my living hell of a life gave me strength in that area. The same strength that I use to help those struggling today.
Indigo
When I was forced to face down my incessant desire to help others, even to my own detriment, I found out that I am a Starseed/volunteer/indigo. I tried so hard to disprove it all, but the harder I tried, the more it became a realization. Right down to the RH-negative blood running through my veins. Check out this article to get more on that here.
Two nights ago, as Pat and I sat on the balcony of our air bnb I suddenly had an idea. “Pat, let’s make contact!” Pat looked at me like I had three heads. I felt like I had three heads. Dr. Steven Greer has an app called CE 5. I don’t know if you all are familiar, but this is a way that Dr. Greer claims we can make contact with Extraterrestrials. I know how it sounds, believe me.
CE 5 Contact
This was another attempt to disprove some of the things I had learned. I have always considered myself to be a pragmatic realist. Facts only over here! I suggested doing the CE 5 protocol because we were bored, and this was at least one thing I could most likely disprove, or so I thought.
Now, take this next bit however you will. I am not woo-woo, so I will remain impartial. Mind you, I have been stone-cold sober for seven years next month.
We played the tones on the app, laughing. We then stilled ourselves for the following meditation and journey to our center. The app asks you to picture your whereabouts and to be honest, neither of us was likely to be accurate with this thanks to GPS. We finished the meditation. Pat ended up in a deep sleep. Nothing happened. I was satisfied.
Until the next evening when we made our way to the balcony to see how many iguanas we could spot on the top of the trees. When I looked up, I saw this multi-colored ball of light on the horizon. (I shot TONS of videos.) I have proof of what we witnessed, and I have shown it to many others who can’t explain it, and I was thinking that they had a hard time finding us because we weren’t picturing our location accurately.
Rainbow Star or More?
I really wouldn’t have thought too much of it if the colors weren’t so undeniably clear and… Well colored. We could clearly see it go from a red orb to a green orb and then from green to blue. It was directly to the right of our balcony directly across.
Then we look straight out, and we see another one. I started looking up the satellites and locations on google. Nothing is going on over Puerto Rico. NOTHING. We stayed out on the balcony until well after the kids were in bed. We took a bathroom break around midnight, and when we went back out, they were gone. Just gone.
Pat was very reluctant to believe that we had made contact. Like really reluctant. The next night we made our way out to the balcony, and don’t you know that the one that was on the right was not there in the same spot, but it was there. It was about 45 degrees further to the east. There was no second one on the second night.
Little Ole Us
Last night we went out, and there was no sign. I asked Pat if he wanted to do the CE 5 protocol again. He agreed because he simply could not allow himself to believe that this was actually a CE 5 contact that we had made. Little ole us. A bit after I mentioned it my daughter came out, and she points out the beautiful multi-colored orb in the sky, again in a different spot.
Could they have somehow received the signal of our desire to see them again? We hadn’t done the CE 5 exercises again, but here they were. I can’t explain it, and I won’t try here. I have plenty of footage, and when I did some research, I found on Reddit that this is the extent of the contact that most who have attempted contact have made. Glowing or multi-colored orbs in the sky. I read that they don’t want to scare us so this is as far as they will go.
Take it all as you will, but I say put your money where your mouth is. Instead of judging me and thinking I have gone three sheets to the wind, just try it. What harm is there in trying? Times are changing. Remember when all of the cell phone companies were competing and putting the competition down? Now they all work together much like everything else. Ifft is a perfect example. Everything and everyone working together for the best possible user experience. It’s quite the shift.
If you are interested in seeing some of the footage I took that night, you can find it posted here on my ‘kind of’ YouTube channel.
What do you think?
What do you guys think? I believe that we have been seriously misled by a greedy and impure government in more ways than we can count. If we are to believe the experiences of Dolores Cannon, then we know that the ETs have saved humanity many times over. They have only ever tried to aid us and get us where we need to be.
I liken it to the fact that if we were told as children by our elders that we could fly, but we had never seen anyone fly, would we believe we could fly? Yes, we absolutely would! We trust the generations that came before us, and they trusted those that came before them. We have been misled for many centuries and beyond.
Post Off Quote (Until Next Time)
“The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.”
-Nelson Mandala
Post Off Affirmation
I deserve so much more than my addiction has served me. I am strong. I overcome.
I also sooo love your title, progressing not perfecting! I don’t believe in Perfection and think the struggle to be perfect stalls and blocks a lot of us!
Sheila, I agree 350%! Other people in our lives instill perfection as a possibility when we are young and it really fu*ks us up! Perfection in anything does not exist and does not need to, except maybe nature. Nature is perfection. I love my plants. Green witch here! Lol. Maybe I will tell you someday a bit down the road why I chose the title. You better stick around!
I think I am a green witch too! I sooo align with Merlin, as Terence McKenna presents him. And for sure I will stick around and connect with you on all available channels.
I checked out your blog, and sister, we are so so aligned! Lol. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my succulent gardens. I have 2 raised flower beds in my kitchen. One is a cactus garden, and one is a succulent garden. My plants keep me sane and if you think you are a green witch and u got that green thumb 👍 then so it is. I for sure have that green thumb. I love ur blog btw. You know that there is nowhere to comment after ur posts, and I couldn’t find the follow button. I am going to try from here now, on WordPress. 💜
I’m so glad you persevered on WordPress so I could get your comments!!! Xoxo
OMG we’re sooo aligned!! My mom had the RH neg blood too and birthed me an AB positive, only baby to live more than a day out of her 6 pregnancies! And I just published a book all about the blue, indigo and messages from the Other Side!
Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection.
GET OUT! What is it called? I am reading a book right now called Bloodline of The Gods by Nick Redfern! They have it on Audible, and I highly recommend that you read it, being that you are a descendant of the bloodline. My SO’s mother is RH Negative, so he is as well. You HAVE to check this book out. The author went back in all of the Sumerian texts, and he did the work, and the story is fascinating! I am only on Chapter 9, and it is so so so good. I am listening now. Lol. Another one that you may want to check out is Starborne by Solara. I’m getting a vibe here. Please let me know what you think if you get the chance to check it out. My jaw has already hit the floor a few times. Don’t forget to let me know what your book is called. You can request me on FB or Instagram or whatever your are comfortable with. Thank you.
I will check out those books. Sweet!!!
Oopsie! The bottom was cut off. I am checking out your book now!